Bad news:
x Ankle injury is still apparent.
x I walked past an unfinished fixture at work two days ago and sliced a hole in the thigh of my only pair of jeans that fit.
x Fights in my apartment have been more and more frequent.
x The muffler for my good ol' car rusted off yesterday, so I have to put up with a very loud Ford Taurus until I can afford to replace it.
x My thyroid is still screwed up and my doctor had to bump up my medication again today. I hope this can be resolved soon. I'm starting to get a little worried.

Good news:
x Painting for my new casa is almost finished. All that's left is the trim. I'm extremely pleased with the color of the walls; I can't wait to see what it looks like when finished.
x A very good friend of mine is visiting from California tomorrow. I'm excited to see him. It should be a fun couple of days.
x Packing is going well. I do believe I'm almost finished now.
x I'm on a self-propelled road to improvement. I've picked out a few aspects of my personality to work on and I'm genuinely going to stick with it. I would like to be a better person so that maybe my next relationship (whenever that may come around) will be as flawless as possible.

I'm off to do a bit of last minute cleaning before I retire for the evening.

Take care, everyone.

Current Music: Silversun Pickups - Three Seed

Just wanted to explain my little absence from the internet. Friday I had to work from noon until 8, but unfortunately I had a headache that started at 1pm Thursday and by 6pm Friday it was horrible and I was in tears, so work sent me home and I wound up in the emergency room because nothing would get rid of it and I couldn't stand it anymore. I felt nauseous and light headed on top of the pain. I went to Prompt Care first and they gave me a shot of Toridall which did nothing - so they sent me over to the ER because they didn't have anything stronger.

So. At the ER I got an IV in my hand (arm veins were being a pain in the ass apparently) with Benadryl (apparently to calm my senses?) and a painkiller (I forgot the name). By the time the painkiller was in my system I was nodding in and out and barely able to speak or keep my eyes open. I was there until 11pm (arrived at roughly 6:30pm) and when I got home all I could do was sleep. (They gave me a prescription for Ultram, a narcotic-like pain reliever, as well. I've yet to fill it because most of what I did on Saturday was sleep, but I'll be filling it after work today.)

Saturday - Still feeling the effects of the IV, I slept until 10:30am or so. Woke up, hopped online, wound up doing half a Kara run with assholes that think sexism is okay and made jokes about men ignoring women for a very good reason, so I left the run which wound up exploding into guild chat where 80% of the people online were telling me I was just being oversensitive and it was "a joke" and "not intended to hurt my feelings"... So after I had about enough of that, I gquit and went back to bed (around 5pm or so). I woke up at midnight and remembered I have to be to work this morning at 8am until 4pm, so I forced myself to go back to sleep. I just now woke up at 5:30am.

My legs and butt are still sore from assembling tables at work on Friday - if I were in better shape that stuff would be easier, but alas - I'm not. I think I screwed up my ankle somehow too as it's hurt pretty profusely since then and I can't put all my weight on it without a sharp pain.

Soooo that, in a nutshell, was my weekend. Hooray!

At least I have plenty of time to shower and eat some food before work. Perhaps today will be a tad easier. And no more $#@%ing headaches.

Current Music: Bob Marley - Stir It Up

Renovations for my new casa are under construction. Painting commences on Monday and I can move in shortly after. The cable company has been contacted so internet should be hooked up fairly soon at the new place. It's going to look different. It's going to be different. I'm excited. This is the first time I've ever gotten to play "Design on a Dime" in real life, and I'm jittery at the thought of exercising my artistic arm as far as interior decorating goes. I'll be moved in by the end of the month. Life will change dramatically, then.

I received my job back, as well. Thank goodness for small miracles. Things are slowly steadying and I'm thinking that the turbulence will subside altogether very soon.

All good things, all steps forward, all improvements. I'm trying to surround myself with positives in hopes that I'll absorb them via osmosis or something tantamount. Good thoughts, good thoughts.

I recently reacquainted myself with a friend I haven't spoken to in a while; it's incredibly nice having his company. I wasn't exactly a wonderful person when last we spoke in any sort of frequency; I'm hoping that the changes I've made in my personality and my life are shining through to prove that I'm worth sticking around for.

Completely opposite to that, I had a brush with a "friend" (term applied very loosely) this morning that resulted in me ignoring them. All kinds of unhappy memories came flooding back from the last time we were friends and things didn't go his way - he's incredibly childish and I don't know why I keep giving him more chances to hurt me. It needs to stop. I'm a pushover for people who seem nice - it's one of my strings, and people like him pull it often. Hopefully I won't have to deal with him again. Such an unpleasant man. If you would even call him a man... Someone of his stature doesn't exactly exude the maturity level normally associated with a true man.

I'm looking forward to starting my life over. It seems long overdue.

Current Music: Silversun Pickups - Three Seed

You know that feeling in your chest you get when you hear a certain song on the radio that has an association with someone from your past that you've had a sad falling out with?

It affects my whole torso. My stomach twists and my chest actually hurts. I feel like I've got quills in my veins. I've got a lot of memories (of him) that I wish I could just erase because they're rather painful to recall.

I would relive one night over and over again, stuck in a record skip life, just because one night was probably one of the happiest nights I've had in my life.

The worst part is, it's my fault that I can't have that happiness.

My heart is raging pissed at me.

Current Music: Mary J. Blige - Be Without You