I'm going "camping" with my family this weekend. I use the term "camping" very loosely because it's not so much camping as it is checking into an outdoor hotel. There will be electricity, clean water, showers, bathrooms, a pool, etc. I'll also have access to my parent's camper (which is really nice, actually; it's like a mobile hotel) which includes a shower, a flat screen TV, a bathroom, a refrigerator, heating and air conditioning, a stove, a sink, so on and so forth.

I tried to weasel my way out of it because my brother and sister in law won't be attending, which also means my niece and nephews won't be going either. My company will include my parents, my grandparents, my uncle, and my parent's friends Mike and Diana. My Grandfather will probably talk to me about how I'm doing with work, where I'm at with school and what I'm going to do to improve my life. Don't get me wrong, I love my Grandfather - I just don't enjoy any of those topics and they seem to be quite frequent when we get together. It's his way of showing interest and caring for me, though, so I always humor him and let him in on the rather boring details of my work escapades and what I'm doing to enhance my life.

Somehow by filing bankruptcy S&B has the ability to dish out more shifts, so I might be getting more hours there. I don't necessarily enjoy my job because I know a lot of people aren't fond of me (with the exception of Brian) and the work is so tedious (and sometimes exhausting), but Racine doesn't have a lot of options when it comes to employment. I really wish I hadn't quit Sunglass Hut as hastily as I did. My emotions wrecking my chances, I suppose.

After having my thyroid medication adjusted for the fourth time, I believe my headaches have receded. I rarely have them anymore (though when I do, they're still exceedingly painful). I noticed that they came back during a period of time when I didn't have access to refills on my prescription (what a hellish week that was), so I'm inclined to believe that the headaches were linked directly to my doctors fiddling with my thyroid levels until they were satisfied with my blood test results. Hopefully they're done tinkering with it, I can't take much more of those skull-splitting manifestations.

In any case, I'll be bringing my laptop with me on this "camping" trip. If I can't pick up a WiFi connection, at the very least I'll be able to dink around with Photoshop, solitare, watch movies and listen to Bob Marley.

I have to admit... I'm somewhat looking forward to falling asleep listening to a churning river, under the stars that try desperately to peek through the canopy of pine trees above my tent. Maybe the fresh air will do me some good. Perhaps I'll clear my head.

If nothing else, I'll have access to a rather nice camera; more chances to practice photography.

Take care, everyone.

 

Life is going on at a somewhat slow but bearable pace. Work is giving me more hours; a whopping 12 - but, it's more money in my pocket which I can't sneer at.

My cell phone got shut off due to lack of funds available to pay the bill. I figured I'd pay three of my  bills instead of just one and so it remains off. The best way to get a hold of me now is via AIM - SweetBrugmansia.

My headaches persist. A certain phenomena occurs occasionally when I'm about to get an intense headache: I lose peripheral vision in my right eye. It's like someone puts a cone of blurry mass over the corner of my eye and I can't see anything to my right. When this happens I'm barely able to read (books, text on the PC, etc.) and driving is difficult. I've only had it happen once while driving,  but thankfully I was a minute from home. I've been keeping track of when it happens. It's been occurring since June 30th of 2007. Normally I'm at the computer when it happens with the exception of once while driving and once at the living room window. I can tell when it's about to happen. I can't explain it. After having "good" vision for most of my life, I can just sense when something is wrong with my sight and this craziness is about to begin.

After doing a little research on Wikipedia, I've found what's happening is most likely a migraine aura - the onset of a migraine. Otherwise known as tunnel vision. I'll have to go to my doctor to make a real diagnosis of course, but it sounds a lot like my symptoms.

My sister in law says it could possibly be a vision problem, and I might need glasses. I'll have to make an appointment for an eye exam and see if that's the case. If it really is that simple, I'll be very pleased. I'd like to stop the headaches or at least find a way to prevent them from happening so frequently.

I didn't mention this before because I didn't want to make a big deal out of it then, but I've been dating someone new for a while now. After Adam and I broke up I was really skeptical about getting into another relationship. I still carry baggage from former relationships - I think breakups bring them all back for a period of time. Anyway... I carried a lot of baggage from my relationship with Adam and I didn't really WANT another one, but when I met Dave I he made me feel so very relaxed and at ease. He made me so happy and carefree that I let go of the weights I was carrying and helped me be myself again. I tried so hard not to fall for him. I was wary of it. I didn't want another failed relationship. He swept me off my feet completely.

He's incredibly funny. He makes me laugh all the time. He's generous - when my WoW account was hacked last month, he had made up his mind that if the GMs didn't restore my gear, he was going to put his 70 priest on a separate account and give him to me so I wouldn't be heartbroken over losing all my hard work. He's handsome - his eyes are such an intense blue and his lips are so very kissable. He's comforting. He'll talk to me and do everything to calm me down and make me feel better, even if I'm just being overly emotional (which is nice, because I feel stupid for being so emotional but he tries to eliminate that feeling). He even gave me his Netflix account information so I could watch movies at home. It may seem trivial to most people ("Oh wow, Netflix. That's almost like an engagement ring. LOSER.") but to me it shows the little things matter most. He's an amazing guy and I'm incredibly lucky to have him.

You were such a surprise...
An unexpected gift.
Said I was pretty, and I believed it.
Not really used to all this attention.
Told myself I don't deserve you
And this is just a phase.
Could I get used to being loved the right way?
I wanna argue, but there is nothing to say...

'Cuz you send me flowers when there's no occasion
Yeah we talk for hours, you still wanna listen.
Won't hold it against me if I just need you to hold me tonight...
My mother always told me that you'd show up one day
So scared to feel this way...
But love, I think I'm ready... Ready for it.


Current Music:
Katy Perry - I Think I'm Ready

 

Just wanted to explain my little absence from the internet. Friday I had to work from noon until 8, but unfortunately I had a headache that started at 1pm Thursday and by 6pm Friday it was horrible and I was in tears, so work sent me home and I wound up in the emergency room because nothing would get rid of it and I couldn't stand it anymore. I felt nauseous and light headed on top of the pain. I went to Prompt Care first and they gave me a shot of Toridall which did nothing - so they sent me over to the ER because they didn't have anything stronger.

So. At the ER I got an IV in my hand (arm veins were being a pain in the ass apparently) with Benadryl (apparently to calm my senses?) and a painkiller (I forgot the name). By the time the painkiller was in my system I was nodding in and out and barely able to speak or keep my eyes open. I was there until 11pm (arrived at roughly 6:30pm) and when I got home all I could do was sleep. (They gave me a prescription for Ultram, a narcotic-like pain reliever, as well. I've yet to fill it because most of what I did on Saturday was sleep, but I'll be filling it after work today.)

Saturday - Still feeling the effects of the IV, I slept until 10:30am or so. Woke up, hopped online, wound up doing half a Kara run with assholes that think sexism is okay and made jokes about men ignoring women for a very good reason, so I left the run which wound up exploding into guild chat where 80% of the people online were telling me I was just being oversensitive and it was "a joke" and "not intended to hurt my feelings"... So after I had about enough of that, I gquit and went back to bed (around 5pm or so). I woke up at midnight and remembered I have to be to work this morning at 8am until 4pm, so I forced myself to go back to sleep. I just now woke up at 5:30am.

My legs and butt are still sore from assembling tables at work on Friday - if I were in better shape that stuff would be easier, but alas - I'm not. I think I screwed up my ankle somehow too as it's hurt pretty profusely since then and I can't put all my weight on it without a sharp pain.

Soooo that, in a nutshell, was my weekend. Hooray!

At least I have plenty of time to shower and eat some food before work. Perhaps today will be a tad easier. And no more $#@%ing headaches.

Current Music: Bob Marley - Stir It Up